Stalking will always and forever will be a part of moving on- well, for me. When we broke up last February 6, I must admit I stalk his profile every single day for the first week just to see if he's getting better or maybe I'm just finding excuse to see his profile but one thing's certain- it is a part of how I move on.
I remember one time that I stalk his evil sister's account. To find more things to make me hate her. But then I realized that this is not healthy.
So I let go with this stupid "stalking" thing.
I focused on these people who loves me and people who supports me and Edmund.
Last week he sent a message asking how are we doing and he told me that me misses me. Honestly, I lost my focus again. I remember telling to my friends how jerk he is and how I despise him and his family. If only you guys knew. Sigh!
I'm trying to find my emotional freedom and gain my composure again. I hate it when I cannot even write for my work. I don't want to lose my job. I can't even take a bath. How can he do this to me? Why I keep letting myself be like this. I don't want to be like this anymore. I need to be more stronger. Lord, help me.
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