Life has been very busy for me these past few months. Hence, my blog hiatus. But that's okay. I have so many realizations and I want to share them with you. You know, these past few months I have been very stressed out with various triggers. Of course, the number one is the pandemic as this really the cherry on top of these 'crazy' situation that we are all going through.
Me before anything else
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Because of the pandemic, there are a lot of plans that were postponed and yes, those plans are my most awaited vacation HAHA! I have been working so hard and for the first time in the longest time, I have decided to take a rest at least for a weekend. BUT! IT WAS POSTPONED! hahaha.
Pandemic also caused my OJT to be online and by "project basis". My OJT was supposed to be done in a TV Network bt because of the pandemic, it wasn't push through. Thus, I needed to pass tons of projects for me to consume and meet the 260 hours required for the entire semester. And guess what? I haven't finished because I lost my inspiration and motivation. This pandemic is never-ending.
As the pandemic arises, all businesses were affected. It affected mine and Jerico's company. He was not-really-that-jobless but he is not given any schedule for 6 months now because restaurants (he's a chef by the way) are not on a 100% back to normal. I on the other hand lost several clients, I experienced being laid off from work without prior notice. I became in a situation wherein I need to stick with negative people and do the things I am not comfortable doing anymore because I need to survive- this is the hardest part. Staying with a team that you are not happy to be with. Working a job that you are no longer motivated to do. It's terrible.
But this pandemic also made me realize a lot of things:
I am getting wiser
Because of the pandemic, I became wiser about choosing the projects I am going to do, I became picky with the people I work with. I became financially aware and spend more things that can give me stability and value. I became more aware of how should I handle my finances and most importantly. I became wiser in choosing myself over money.
Me before anything else
I realized that before the pandemic, I get as many opportunities as I can, and yes, they are giving me enough money (sometimes even more than what I need) but then I realize that although it's giving me financial benefit. They are not giving me mental benefit- which is more important than ever. I make myself stuck in a terrible situation when in fact, I can definitely omit those from happening.
Loving every second
Life is unpredictable. Not everything will go the way you planned and want it to happen. Sometimes, God will let you go to terrible situations because he wants you to learn. To me, I need to focus on more important things than money and career- family. I realized that even though I am not showy to my parents, I can still show them that I am grateful to have them.
Choose the people who will lift you up
This is one of my biggest takeaways from this situation. I have this habit of staying with negative people just because I don't want to lose a client, I don't want to lose a friend but in reality, these people shouldn't mean nothing to me; these people will only give me unnecessary stress and burden because I will always question my worth. Instead, I should stick with people who have the same vision as me, a vision and mission that wants to be successful and share these blessings with others. Not some hypocrite who shows a facade of 'greatness' but inside it's rotten and with no value.
This is why I am trying to revamp myself, my value, and my purpose. I realized that life is short for toxicity and even though this will take a while because the transition is one of the hardest things to do, I am positive that I am going to be a better person, content creator, and business owner.
Cheers to new beginnings! See you on my next blog.
